I was a little bitter, confused, and asking my self and God, "why?" You may ask, why was I like this? Because I got turned down on some interviews I had. Though they were encouraging in their letting me know, I still did not understand why I hadn't got either jobs.
-This is the time I talked to God about it all. One of those conversations that He gets from everyone everyday...the "Why?" conversations.-
I got in bed, and started thinking & listening...
In my head, I am thinking (or God is speaking), "Think back to the real reasons you wanted this opportunity."
I think to myself and come up with 2 different reason (ones that were irrelevant to my confusion).
"What's the third reason?"
...Because this is the one position I thought I could do on my own, without God's help...
"There it is...Don't ever think you can do something without My help. No wonder you didn't get the position, you can't do it on your own!"
The phrase/verse "I can do nothing..." popped in my head. John 5:30a, "I can do nothing on my own, as I hear I judge, and my judgment is just, because I seek not my own will but the will of him who sent me." He has to be in everything I do and every decision that I make. Thank goodness for a Father who not only loves, but rebukes.
I thanked Him for speaking to me, and giving me an answer on His time, when I needed it the most...I just had to find the silence in the sound.